I am losing steam majorly on this project. I find that when I am not feeling well it's much harder to think of, or find the energy to accomplish, something. I am relying right now on the small little day to day things, but I keep thinking I need to be making grand gestures. I want to be spearheading a fund raising campaign for equal rights or organising a fundraiser for...something or...something. But what I did was help a sweet neighbour girl with her Prom makeup and I took my sister out to lunch. And I gave a friend some curtains and the neighbour kids some clothes and bought a super cute coat at DI to give a friend who's toddler would look adorable in it. I FINALLY made cookies as a thank you to a wonderful lady who let me borrow some of her daughter's soccer trophies for a shoot and also for the woman who took our Primary class when I was ill. I installed our new dishwasher to save a few bucks. In June I took my daughter camping on a mommy/daughter trip to Moab and I tried not to yell at her the whole week. I bought my sister some jeans and I talked to my mom. I also adopted a dog because my husband and kids are in love with it.
I sometimes feel like these little things are too small. They're not enough. I will think of the blog every day and tell myself that spending an extra fifteen minutes talking to my son one night shouldn't count because I should be doing that anyway, but then I remember that not every thing I do is going to be like when I was sewing costumes for the kids at Kids on the Move. Sometimes service is as simple as picking up after my dogs when they poo on the neighbor's lawns. Or logging into www.gofundme.com and making a small contribution. WHICH YOU SHOULD TOTALLY DO because it feels so good and it's soooo easy. Some of the things you will read on there are incredible. Like today I went to help a local family who's home was destroyed by a fire. Their story is rough. They are just nice people with a small child doing what they can to get by and then boom, one day they nearly lose everything they own. To help them, go here. Or to find them you can also go to the main page and just put Kylee House Fire into the search engine and their page will come up. It's fast and easy and they'd be really, really grateful. Their little guy lost diapers and clothes and they lost furniture...I mean everything. You can read about it there on Go Fund Me. I also read a compelling campaign today on that site, Go Fund Me, about a young woman named Landen Gambill who is fighting her college, the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill over her right to speak up after a campus rape. They had the cajones to charge her with an honor code violation for speaking out. It's a compelling story that you can read about here.
I think about these people and the helplessness is painful and makes me feel frustrated and sad. I think about all of those years when I had my health and I was selfish with it and I squandered it and I wandered aimlessly like a fool and I had no focus or goals or drive. My 20's were an ugly decade on me. I just think about those people that are young but still get "it" and are dedicating themselves to helping others and I'm so grateful for them. And I hope I can help my kids understand how important giving is and I hope I can set a good example for them and I hope they'll be focused and giving young people. I hope they see me trying. I hope I can keep doing the little things and I hope that it turns out that the little things were enough in the end. I hope that is my lesson in all of this. I'm putting my faith in it.
I sometimes feel like these little things are too small. They're not enough. I will think of the blog every day and tell myself that spending an extra fifteen minutes talking to my son one night shouldn't count because I should be doing that anyway, but then I remember that not every thing I do is going to be like when I was sewing costumes for the kids at Kids on the Move. Sometimes service is as simple as picking up after my dogs when they poo on the neighbor's lawns. Or logging into www.gofundme.com and making a small contribution. WHICH YOU SHOULD TOTALLY DO because it feels so good and it's soooo easy. Some of the things you will read on there are incredible. Like today I went to help a local family who's home was destroyed by a fire. Their story is rough. They are just nice people with a small child doing what they can to get by and then boom, one day they nearly lose everything they own. To help them, go here. Or to find them you can also go to the main page and just put Kylee House Fire into the search engine and their page will come up. It's fast and easy and they'd be really, really grateful. Their little guy lost diapers and clothes and they lost furniture...I mean everything. You can read about it there on Go Fund Me. I also read a compelling campaign today on that site, Go Fund Me, about a young woman named Landen Gambill who is fighting her college, the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill over her right to speak up after a campus rape. They had the cajones to charge her with an honor code violation for speaking out. It's a compelling story that you can read about here.
I think about these people and the helplessness is painful and makes me feel frustrated and sad. I think about all of those years when I had my health and I was selfish with it and I squandered it and I wandered aimlessly like a fool and I had no focus or goals or drive. My 20's were an ugly decade on me. I just think about those people that are young but still get "it" and are dedicating themselves to helping others and I'm so grateful for them. And I hope I can help my kids understand how important giving is and I hope I can set a good example for them and I hope they'll be focused and giving young people. I hope they see me trying. I hope I can keep doing the little things and I hope that it turns out that the little things were enough in the end. I hope that is my lesson in all of this. I'm putting my faith in it.
